i need to admit that one of my greatest memories (as of late), is sitting in bed and watching those stupid infomercials for time life music. tonight it was rock ballads from the eighties and nineties! it was so fucking awesome that i almost peed my pants (not that i don't already have the majority of those "hair band" love songs in my library but nonetheless there's always a song or two that is forgotten). i also have to confess that i've become especially sentimental for the sixties and seventies love rock songs, so much in fact that i downloaded a shit ton of the music. i'm desperate but not desperate enough to drop almost two-hundred bones for the whole collection. DUH. sorry time life music! not really!
my neighbors likely hate me after playing hours on end of this genre of music but i have this overwhelming need for some very specific nostalgic memories that simply make me smile. i can't tell you how many times i've seen tony orlando promoting this collection and as much as his hair disturbs me, i can't get enough of anne murray and john denver. all right. that's not the complete truth; although, i have been diggin' anne and john, i can't stop listening to leo sayer's "when i need you". it's totally sick and twisted (yes, i know), that i've probably listened to that song twenty plus times tonight but i just LOVE it. i can't hardly even stand myself because i'm so completely in love with the song. besides...let's face it...music like that just doesn't exist anymore.
moreover, it's totally comforting and honest and sentimental, and i can only drown my sorrows so much in booze (among other things). as a result, i've been forced to find fortitude in the only thing i can relate to right now and that is music. this specific collection and genre of music is meaningful to me on a very deep and personal level for reasons i do not care to expand on at the moment. the more important message that i'm trying to portray is that in my anger and hurt, i have had the ability to find the peace of mind, in addition to the dauntlessness to look forward with the grace and dignity of a woman. don't worry...i'll still be here to bitch about something. i'm not that optimistic or idealistic - i'm positive i'll always be cynical and jaded. that, and i still hate mostly everyone.
"say what you want to say. say what you need to say..." ~ john mayer
i've been told i should write a blog. this is me writing a blog - mostly about nothing. well...at least nothing that's mind-blowing or life-changing. furthermore, there are no rules and no limitations to this blog. lawd only knows i've never been a rule follower! i suppose in some ways that this is my opportunity to just say what it is i want and need to say, and for those of you who know me best...i'm probably not going to apologize for it.
if you've ever just wanted to unload, vent, bitch, moan and whine about life and how much it sucks kaka, and not care to be judged while just putting your feelings out there...here's your chance. or perhaps you want to tell everyone what blows your hair back and what a great day it is to be alive...bring it on! (i haven't always been a pessimist)! wink-wink. nudge-nudge. so read on my fellow bloggers!
if you've ever just wanted to unload, vent, bitch, moan and whine about life and how much it sucks kaka, and not care to be judged while just putting your feelings out there...here's your chance. or perhaps you want to tell everyone what blows your hair back and what a great day it is to be alive...bring it on! (i haven't always been a pessimist)! wink-wink. nudge-nudge. so read on my fellow bloggers!
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